⭐ Breakthroughs & Milestones10 days ago

The Day My Son Said 'I Love You' for the First Time

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Katrine Kourkina

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I want to share something that happened last Tuesday — a moment I've been waiting for since my son was diagnosed at age 2.

My boy is 5 now. He was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder when he was 2 years and 3 months old. The pediatrician said those words and my world shifted. Not because I loved him any less, but because I suddenly had no roadmap for what was ahead.

For three years, we've done speech therapy twice a week. We've tried PECS cards, AAC devices, sign language, and every approach his amazing therapist suggested. Some days felt like we were climbing a mountain with no summit in sight. I'd watch other kids his age chatting away at the playground and feel that familiar ache in my chest.

I'm a single mom, so it's just the two of us most of the time. There were nights I'd cry in the shower after he was asleep, wondering if I was doing enough. Wondering if he'd ever be able to tell me what he was feeling.

Last Tuesday was an ordinary evening. We were doing our bedtime routine — bath, pajamas, three books (always three, always in the same order), and then lights out with his weighted blanket. I leaned down to kiss his forehead like I do every night and whispered, "I love you, buddy."

And then he said it.

"Luh you, mama."

It wasn't perfectly clear. It wasn't how you'd hear it in a movie. But it was HIS voice saying HIS words, and I knew exactly what he meant.

I held it together until I got to the hallway. Then I sat on the floor outside his door and sobbed. Happy tears. Grateful tears. Three-years-of-hard-work tears.

I'm sharing this because I know some of you are in that waiting season right now. You're doing the therapy, showing up every day, and wondering if it's making a difference. It is. Even when you can't see it yet.

Your child is working so hard. And so are you. Those small moments — the eye contact that lasts a second longer, the new sound they try, the way they reach for your hand — those are all milestones worth celebrating.

Keep going. Your moment is coming. And when it does, it will be worth every single hard day that came before it.

Sending love to every parent reading this tonight. You're not alone in this. ❤️

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